November .2025.
The Month of Thanks
This is always a month of gratitude practice in the world. I think that’s pretty great. How perfect is it to encourage focusing on the good things in our lives, especially in the season that usually sparks depression in the world. I have to say that reading through my journal this month made my heart smile. I spent a lot of time focusing on things that bring me joy.
Number one this month has been creative expression. Number two has probably been learning new techniques and growing my ability to work on more advanced projects. Number three, has definitely been my biggest supporter cheering me on through every step of my creative projects, and even helping me when my sewing machine was being problematic.
I’m only going to include one of my journal entries because I think they are important for understanding the closure and self acceptance I found this month.
Editing these photos sang to my creative soul. I truly hope to see them on someone’s walls someday. There’s so much beauty in transforming, even the transformation of death. Death of a bad habit. Death of a relationship. Death of self doubt.
If you try, you might fail, but if you don’t try, you’ll never succeed. -Thomas A. Knight
Intention: More Creative Time 🤍
If you checked out last month’s post, you probably saw that I decided to start a monthly intention. So far it’s totally paying off.
- 1st- Finished sewing in moon box
- 2nd- Filled hinge holes I can reset the hinges
- 3rd- Filled gap under hinges and edited photos from deer hunting
- 4th- Finished Rick’s painting
- 6th- Finished my moon box
- 7th- Organized my bathroom with cute bear cubbies. I love cute stuff
- 10th- Brainstormed Troy’s jacket
- 11th- Picked out some fabric and landed on a design
- 12th- deconstructed and laid out jacket design, actually really stoked
- 15th- Started sketching the design on Paige’s gift
- 16th- Finished drawing the flowers on it
- 17th- Worked on baby Harley’s blanket
- 18th- Paint night with my lovey
- 20th- Cut out snowflakes and took drink photos for work
- 21st- Helped decorate work
- 23rd- Started cutting template for jacket, feels good to see it laid out
- 26th- Painted windows at work
- 29th- Recut baby blanket fabric
- 30th- Finished her blanket and made some bracelets
I’m hoping to share some of these creative endeavors with you, but some of them won’t be given to the recipients when I finish this up, so I’ll be posting my finished up projects videos on my instagram. So excited to be gifting pieces of my soul to my people.
November 23rd
This almost year long journey has been a ride. I’ve started reading “Good Vibes, Good Life,” by Vex King. It has opened my mind with just the introduction… Everything in my life, whether it’s good or bad, has brought me here. I’ve been able to find self-love, and realize that it’s okay to love my shadow and want to be better. I don’t hate my past life, but I sure as fuck don’t want to repeat it.
Finishing things has always been hard for me. Especially when it comes to a creative thing. Perfection is hard. Finishing Rick’s Painting felt soooo good. Wanting to do more creative things, also finishing my moon box, was important for keeping that positive momentum.
I realized that finishing Troy’s jacket is rather healing. Hard because I have been reflecting on life a lot, but feels good to see the shift in my mindset. Feels good to know the divorce is moving forward, even if I still have sad feels about the failure and hurt that came from it. Finishing his coat feels like a positive note to end our marriage on. Feels almost like a skeleton leaving the closet and I am happy to be rid of it. Also feels like I am keeping my word. I said I’d finish it, and I will.
Having a partner who loves me where I’m at and also wants what’s best for me feels amazing. Tonight we talked about our regrets. Mostly parenting stuff and our selfish moments connected to all of that. It feels good to share those things so openly with someone without judgement, and to know that he feels safe enough to share his vulnerabilities with me too. It really is a beautiful thing to want a future with someone who wants the same things in life. Someone who is patient with me, and also pushes me to push past my bullshit. I may not be psychic but I can’t see my future without him in it. It’s the trips to the gym, cooking dinner together, the Sunday drives out into nature, the laughter and the love I’ve always hoped for in a partner.
Maybe it’s my self acceptance that finally allowed the person I wanted to show up.
If I’d have met him any sooner than I did, I know I wouldn’t have been ready for him.
Love is a mysterious, amazing thing. <3
Must Read Book
Good Vibes, Good Life: How self-love is the key to unlocking your greatness. By Vex King
I barely made it thru the introduction of this book and felt inspiration to look for greater than the past. I love that this book has small digestible chapters. It’s really only a few pages to get to a meaningful message. My place of reading has mostly been on the elliptical and I typically spend 15 minutes there. Part of that time is spent editing photos, but it is started with reading. The reading really helps me to think about the things that don’t matter when I’m aiming for creativity. We spend too much time worrying about what others think of us, and we end up neglecting what truly brings us peace and happiness.
