The Hunter’s Month – September 2025

Two months in Wyoming, and here comes the real test… Rick is headed to elk camp, for the month. Holy fuck nugget! Thank goodness for Starlink. 😅 I decided to put my gratitude with every post because I had a lot of hard feeling this month, and I didn’t want you to think I completely neglected all the good stuff.

09.02.2025

It’s Tuesday, Rick left for hunting camp on Saturday. I can’t say that I’m a fan of being at our house when he isn’t here. Especially if I’m not busy, I miss him a lot. It just feels lonely. I wish that I had some friends here already, or that I was home for this, around my kids. Paige is due to pop any day and I want to be there. I know it’s not a reasonable want because I know they will want time to adjust with the new little guy joining the party. How am I so dependent on him already? How have I let my existence melt so deeply into him?

I made waffles today, also enchiladas, and rice to make burritos tomorrow. Did a little shopping and even went to shoot my pistol. That was a blast. Hopefully tomorrow I’ll get to the yard work and get to shoot my gun again. I should be painting. I just feel sad. I don’t want Rick to feel bad being out there, especially since he’s sick too. Sigh…

Gratitude: Cozy blankets, meal prepping, waffles, retail therapy, pistol time, music, video & voice messages, family, comedy shows, and Star.

If you make friends with yourself, you’ll never be alone. -Maxwell Maltz

09.03.2025

Dreams have been weird lately. High School stuff, why is my head going there? Why does it feel like I’m getting depressed again? There is so much to be joyful about. Just realized four days off alone is why I feel so lonely. It feels good to have gotten yard stuff done. Wish the birdies would start eating from my feeders tho. Also got a few crafty projects to start working on too.

Gratitude: Sunshine, my Lovey, my baby doggy, gym plans, a healthy body, yard work, retail therapy, hot tea, squishmallows, and cozy blankies.

09.04.2025

Lots of tears today. I miss everyone. I definitely feel joy that my new grand baby arrived, and is healthy, just really wish I was there to enjoy him. I know I’ll have time, patience just isn’t strong today. I must be about to start my period because I’m overly sensitive. I wish Rick was going to Oregon with me on my next trip. I just want all my life pieces to connect a little bit.

Okay… TALK IT OUT! It is okay to have feelings. It’s better to talk about them, than to bury them deep. I don’t have much of a poker face when I’m upset.

Gratitude: Baby Gregg is healthy, Paige is good after labor, gym time, yummy lunch, fun work crew, Tuesday off, getting to spend more time with Rick at camp, genuine love, happy doggy, and a cute new sweater.

09.05.2025 Got my small ass paycheck today… I’m worth more than that. It’s time to dig into profiting off of my creative side.

09.08.2025 – Day 1 @ Elk Camp

4:45 came early… We both didn’t wanna wake up, but did and got out to look for elk. I love every minute we spend together. I keep thinking it’s gonna get old spending so much time together, but it doesn’t. It just gets better. We saw a few bull elk and heard a few calls but none came back to camp with us. Maybe tomorrow? Glad I’ve got till Thursday.

Gratitude: Snuggles, seeing Rick in his element, sunshine, the smell of sage, full moon vibes, Star loves the outdoors, creative inspo, hot tea, quality time, and music.

09.09.2025

We headed out and the wind was blowing the wrong way, so we went a different direction. Rick found a big group of cows and bulls bugling. He even found the big daddy elk that he wanted, but some other hunters spooked the herd onto private property. He was pretty bummed, and so was I, because I wanted to experience that with him.

Gratitude: Sunrise, hiking, cool rocks, elk bugles, cow calls, watching Rick get excited, seeing elk go crazy, Star happy to see us back, homemade waffles, and sun tea.

09.10.2025

Today I laid in the sun, blew bubbles, and made bracelets. I had to smile because Rick came out and said that he’d never seen an elk camp like that before! I’m glad he appreciates my silly.

Gratitude: Hiking, sunbathing, desert life, morning snuggles, sunrise photos, wubbz, being outside, knowing I’ll miss him, time with my love, and exciting future plans.

09.19.2025

((The redacted entry… Sometimes journal stuff has to be private, not just for me, but for those the entry includes.))

…I need to work on helping me too. Sometimes it’s hard to do when I feel so low, helpless, and lonely…

Gratitude: Sunshine, glitter polish, reconnecting with my love, coffee, squishmallows, his laugh, good people, cozy clothes, roller-skates, and my bat-pack.

09.22.2025

I didn’t journal for a few days, but I got to see my grand babies, so I of course have to document that here and share adorable pictures of them of course!

. Last entry of the month, the 28th of September .

The last week has been a ride. The festival opened a lot of past trauma, not just for me, but Rick too. We both hurt the other. We have had some REALLY great convos since. I feel more in alignment with him than I have ever felt with anyone. Like I can now share anything with him, while I was scared before. All of the time we spend together never grows old, just seems to grow stronger. It feels good to have a partner to do all the things with. He makes me want to do and be better.

Rick rented some horses for Ian’s hunt and I’m loving seeing them outside the back window. I also love that Rick is excited to ride them with me. I think he has a nurturing personality too, hearing him talk to the horses makes my heart melt. He’s a very generous person on all fronts.

Gratitude: Sunshine, music, Star snuffles, peaceful mornings, lovey, words of affirmation, morning snuggles, peaceful mornings, and feeling happy.

Reflection

Hein sight is 20/20. New relationships still carry the old baggage of the past ones. No matter how good you feel, it’s easy to let your shadow side take over when you’re fearful, or unconfident. I am thankful to be able to communicate in a way that is very open. I can’t say enough how important it is to have communication in person, or over the phone, NOT text messages!

Also, I must say that substances can enhance how you are feeling, good and bad. That’s a realization I’ve know for a long time but apparently had to learn the lesson again. Nobody is perfect and if you believe you are, you’re missing out on potential growth that could make your relationships blossom even more.