July .2025.
I was supposed to be out fighting fire, but life had different plans…
July 1st
If I don’t get called out to a fire in two weeks, I might just pack up and go there before October… It might be wreckless but… I’d rather go and get a seasonal job there, and start feeling at home.
Spoiler alert! I missed a call out July 3rd because I was so exhausted working on yard stuff that I went to bed early and was OUT cold! After that… My heart hated missing spending the 4th away from Rick, and I decided that on the 12th I’d send it if I didn’t get called again. Sooo….
July 6th
Woke up awake and ready for the day 🙂 Started it by walking Star and then went on a hike with my Mom and Mark. It was pretty out there. Got back and decided to go to the river, I may have gotten a little sun burnt… Decision made. I’m going to send it to Rick’s. Tomorrow I’m going to visit the kids, and Tuesday I’ll start driving to his place. (Note: I had to wait until Saturday, worth it tho, my car needed some extra work done.) Eek!! I’m so excited to be there with him. My family has shared mixed emotions about it, happiness for me, but also apprehension because I haven’t known him that long.
Rick is adorable, already cleaned out closet space for me <3 I really hope this is’t just love bombing before the storm. Worst case, it’s another life lesson. I’d rather try than have missed out on the possibility of something special. I really think it is something special.
July 9th
I didn’t journal on this day but I wanted to document how fun it was to get to take photos of a friend and their band. I would LOVE to do more of this kind of photography. Putting it out there for the universe 🙂 Also, anyone have any recommendations on where to sell my photography???
Their band is Alien Upgrade, if you wanna check them out.
July 14th < Day 1 Wyoming Life >
Gratitude: Home 💕, Snuggles, Music, Empty car, Coffee, Star loving it here, Cozy spaces, Unpacking, Watching 💗 shoot his bow, Sunrises.
Not gonna lie, I do have a little anxiety being in his space. I just want him comfortable, I don’t want him to feel like I’ve taken over his sanctuary. I’m trying to be quick about putting my things away so that all of my “stuff” doesn’t feel overwhelming. Kind of makes me grateful I didn’t get to bring ALL of my stuff yet. Ha! I love that I asked for his help taking off the roof cargo carrier and he did it right away. Also that he checked the code for my check engine light right out the gate. Feels good to be taken care of and to have my safety be an importance too. Definitely feeling the love.
Feels weird to have a home space after not having one for the last 6 months but I’m sure I’ll settle in quickly. Kind of excited to start looking for a job here and to start meeting people so that I make sure he still has space for quiet too. It’s been a long time since he’s had someone living with him…
July 19th
♥️ 10.5 Mile Hike ♥️
We went and car camped and then hiked out to where his son is doing his elk hunt. I am so at peace with Rick. So much joy in the small moments together. Even just walking in nature. His ability to be silly and lighten the mood when we are both tired of hiking and the never ending wind, swoon.
After our hike Demolition Derby time. I love that he wants to do fun things like that with me. The cherry on top, driving home, he remembered I wanted a photo of the Wyoming sign. Plus gave Star a big ol’ piece of string cheese for her 15th birthday.
July 29th
Ok, I know you’re tired of my mushy af stuff… BUT I wanted to share this date because I had an amazing weekend, camping and scouting elkies with Rick, and took some photos that I love. Also, I want to share an important feeling I had…
HOME ♥️ It feels good to say it and actually believe I am here. The center I feel being with Rick matches the feeling I have sitting out in nature. The feeling I have when I’m dancing and feeling in the flow state. How I feel balls deep in the process of a painting or creative project. It’s not just a dopamine hit, it’s true satisfaction. True calm and safety.
I can’t say that it’s back to regular programming, because there’s more mushy stuff in the next journal update… So enjoy some photos first.
July 30th
The first time in forever that I actually thought about having another human in my FB profile photo… That was kind of a weird epiphany for me today. I think that really showcases the comfort I have in this relationship. Maybe even my commitment to it. I really feel like I can be a girl. Still strong and able to do tough stuff, but able to release control and believe that he will take care of what he says. Trust! I love his handle the business personality. I also love that I asked him to take Star to the vet for me and he didn’t object or make me feel like I was inconveniencing him. It feels good to enjoy all of him. I’m hooked, with a treble hook as he would say. <3
Back to the WORK
Reading
I was recommended this book by two different people and while I’m still working my way thru reading it… Boom game changer! It’s making me question so many things: how I think, act, and feel; and how those things affect my current and future existence.
Breaking the Habit of Being Yourself by Dr. Joe Dispenza
The mind is a powerful thing and if we are feeding it crap, or allowing our emotions to dictate our actions, it controls all the outcomes. A study took place at the HeartMath Research Center in California. They research the physiology of emotions, heart-brain interactions, and much more. They found a link between how our heart beats during different emotions. “When we have negative emotions (such as anger and fear), our heart rhythms become erratic and disorganized. In contrast, positive emotions (love and joy, for instance) produce highly ordered, coherent patterns that HeartMath researchers refer to as heart coherence.” If our feelings control how our heart beats, can you imagine what else our brain can do???
In the book, one quote that spoke out to me was: “You cannot walk through the door into the quantum field as a ‘somebody’; you must enter as a ‘no body.'” Change happens by being humble and adjusting your process. Have you ever heard of the plant experiment? The gist of it, it’s an experiment where they take two plants in the same living conditions, but have people saying loving things to one plant, and hateful things to the other. The plant who was fed positivity thrived, while the other, not so much. I have always known that there is power in words, but never realized how much thinking affects all of that too.
Warning: when feelings become the means of thinking, or if we cannot think greater than how we feel, we can never change. 🤯
I have literally taken a photo from the pages each time I’ve read this book because something each time makes my mind explode. I can’t wait to share more about it with you next month. I also can’t wait to continue learning thought principles and behaviors to better my life.
Worthy of Following
Not an Influencer… Well he might be.
Confession… Sometimes I’m guilty of seeing reels on IG, or other social media places, and believing the propaganda. Especially since I’m feeling a huge desire to improve my relationships with people, and also have the best relationship I can with the person I’m with. Sometimes listening to something someone says that validates a way I’m feeling, feels great, but it doesn’t always actually have truth behind it. I recently stumbled upon Dr. Max Butterfield and I’ve gotta say it’s pretty refreshing. He has a website, wish he had a YouTube, for now though, I’ll settle with his reels on IG. Thought I’d share it here because it’s caring of course. I love that he usually has 3 reasons to give for why the “propaganda” is crap, or 3 steps to do things the right way.
Out with the old and in with the new?
While I didn’t do so well with meditation this month, I had lots of other wins. Lots of journaling, worked out consistently, moved to a new state, got a new job, took lots of photos, and got to spend a fair amount of time outdoors. Winning a little bit at a time. I’m ready for August. Heck, I’m ready for September, and even December. May have a little to do with grand babies on the way, but hey, let’s go!
