MAY .2025. You be the best YOU!

Life transitions. Birthdays. Break-ups. New connections. Adventures. Life plans. Who tf knows?!? Anything is possible.

… Not unhappily, but not fully either, like living in a house where the lights worked, but only in certain rooms. @thesenseswefeel

I saw that quoted on someone else’s social media and while I have love, when things don’t align with who you are, or want to be, staying only dims your light.

05.2025 Randos

As I’ve gone thru my journaling this last month, I’ve noticed that there’s a lot of feeling like I’m missing people, and also a lot of disliking them too. I’ve decided to skip over that, because the negative doesn’t serve me. It’s time to move on and upward from the shit show that was my life.

05.17.2025

Insecurity is wild! I came in feeling good, then seeing people who are more experienced than me made me anxious. It’s weird to want to be seen and not want to be seen at the same time. I wonder how to remedy that? How to get be better at not caring, and better at content as myself. I don’t need to prove myself to anyone. I belong anywhere I desire.

Pack test time 38 min ❤️ Proud to have finished with a great time. I even passed guys younger than me! Kinda funny how insecurities are for nothing most of the time. How do I build the confidence muscle? Trusting myself should come easier, especially considering how many times I’ve proven myself STRONG.

Gratitude 1. Sunshine 2. Memories 3. Blue skies 4. Ash & Kory 5. Old friends 6. Creative time 7. Easy problems 8. New connections 9. Yummy coffee 10. New adventures 11. Pushing comfort zones 12. Edibles 13. Passed the pack test!

05.21.2025

It feels good to be at peace with not requiring a partner in my life. I’m starting to see the people in my life who actually enjoy my company without expectations. A lot of my connections are surface level, and I’m realizing I don’t need deep with everyone. I have it with myself. ❤️

Grateful ~ Puppy lovins, Black Rock coffee, Paige time, Sunshine, Long hot showers, Music, Comfy shoes, Early mornings, Road trip plans, Journal time.

05.23.2025

Sometimes life brings people in your path who make you feel alive. Make you feel seen as the beautiful being you are. Finding someone, even if it is no strings, no label, not sure what it is exactly, who makes you smile and finds peace in the same places as you is pretty amazing. Fear is such a sad place to be in. It feels great to be able to place myself as a priority. To feel like it’s okay to have boundaries, to want my healthy self, and for it to be a good thing is pretty rad. It’s amazing how some times it only takes positive people to make your positive shine.

Left for Missoula yesterday and stayed the night. Woke up and drove to Wyoming. Being in an uncluttered space feels so calm. Definitely makes me excited to cut back on my stuff. Energy and actions are huge, and I’m really enjoying that. I like having someone share my excitement for fire season.

Meditation

Have you ever had something that you’re not looking forward to? Like going home from a vacation? Leaving someone you don’t want to part with? I still struggled to meditate consistently this month, but what opened my eyes to the importance of it was just that. The day I left Wyoming, I felt sad. I meditated before parting ways and it really calmed my spirits. I was able to look at the happenings of the day with a level head. Sitting through a gratitude meditation helped me reframe my mindset on the joys I had experienced, and the mindset that goodbye only meant see you later.

Book of the Month

The Cafe on the Edge of the World by John Strelecky

This book was a huge contributor to life decisions I’ve made recently. I love personal development books that use a story to help set in the concepts. We are so stuck doing things that we are discontent with. Why? I have spent a long portion of my life wanting “things” and for what reason? Don’t get me wrong, I still want those cute boots that compliment my outfit just right on a night out, but at what expense? Do I want to be in debt, stuck in the rat race? No. Can I use a pair that I already own? Yes. This book really helped me to differentiate between what I think I want, and what I really want. It’s not just about possessions though. It’s about life goals, relationships, careers, daily decisions. Delicious! I highly recommend it if you need to reframe your brain, or if you’re just feeling unsatisfied with where your life is.

Onto the month of OLD age…

It’s my birth month, yes, I’m a Gemini ! Btw, not a huge fan of celebrations, definitely a fan of cake though. 😏